I havn't been on in a while, Soooo much has been happening lately it's efeing crazy man. Things ARE getting better at home kinda. I don't really know... Well I can't tell. Kyle's ((navy)) b-day was yesterday...From what he said Lexi his current g/f ain't givin' him shiiiit. hahahhahahaha. I was like... Karma maybe?? lol Now me and Jai were supossed to go on a dat right.... I called him and he was like "well my g/f is here and I'll have to take her home frist probally." I was thinking.... wow. Guys are... wow. That's cool. Kyle ((mayfair)) Sent me a message on myspace.... He said something like We should go at it crazy wild. I wanna see that bod. I was like  hmmm... I'll be in Milwaukee all week for brake next week.... He lives in Franklin.... hmmmmm. :))))) I got happpy quickk. lmao.  And I'm on vyvanse.... It's cool.  I don't have to see my shrink Dr. Amy aka The Bitch aka Dr. Bitch. :]] lol I'm seeing this chick Named Denise. She's pretty cool... ANd Britanyjo and I broke up. Again. But Brian was there she Couldn't just privately IM me. She had to do a 3 way IM thing. I was like wow. BITCH. any who periods over. I'll bbl peaces and loves. 








Lifes a trip. Take as much as you can. So you can OD on life.

                          You have no idead what it's like to lay and cry yourself to sleep. To feel no emotion. To not even  feel the sting of a hot lighter on your skin. To not feel the knife in your flesh. You don't know what it's like to smile while thinking of killing yourself. To have the one you would do anything for rip you to shredds. To be broken in every sense of the world and not be able to fix it. To be utterly alone with no one there for you. To be someones property and then be put in the hospital for six week cause you told  them you weren't.  Babe, you have NO idea. When someone says I love you and you realize Ilove you is 8 letters long and so is BULLSHIT. You don't know what it's like to over dose on a drug your addicted to, and to go back the next day and do it all over again. To have the one you loved, cared for and trusted the most abandon you when you needed them the most. You have no idea what it's like to cry yourself to sleep everynight. 


                                                                                bambi♥♥♥

    so im getting sent to a theripist shrink person. she's a BITCH!!!! i hate her
she makes me seven more pissed.

     i already pissed that im there in the frist place. she just makes it worse. i swear to gaaawd.
     anyways.  kyles back... it's different and james dumped me.  i really am not likeing guys right now.  i ofund this uhhhh*mazing chick. britanyjo. porn star. lmao
    shes  muh babe. she has no idea how much i love her. and  yeah. idk im  soo pissy.  

   people are just pissing me off like you  wouldnt belive.  someones gonna die.

bambi♥♥♥

 well for xmas this yaer i want to know if everythings going to turn out. See, my dad takes out almost $120.00 in like 4 days. my mom only makes about $900. perpay check. and we have no idea why he's taking out so much fucking moeny espeacialy during the holidays when we need it the most. and for my sister if she could get a boyfriend i would be happy :D. and for me well.... i want tha proudcer from hollywood undead, or some hawt guy to fuck me good :D
hahahahahahaha but yes, I have one more favor...........



 can you give my dad motivation to get off his fat ass and help out at home since i am not there to. this annoys me greatly that he can  sit on his ass and complain about everything and thinks that he does nothing wrong. Or can i kill hiom and not get caught??

jay kay

     i feel so sick and like a retard cause 2mrw it has been 8 months since my oldest sister died. idk what im going to do i feel like shit and i just puked =\. well idk im done with everything i want to tell them everything but it wouldn't be good. =\ im leaveing soon i love them soo much. ily
byee

sitin here in my frist  hour  and  think ing of you. 13 days. I'll miss you so dayum much youll have no idea.  your all i can think about you have no idea. i miss you so much kyle you have no idea.  I love the fact that I am completely  crazy for you. you drive me up the wall and out of my mind. 
you have no idea the navy sounds gayish tho...

when you leave ill give you my address  and you can write  me :D ill promise to ALWAYS write back  and /w pics. i love you.




your babe
bambi ♥♥♥

 was ahh mazing 
 I now belive that I now like Charlie from frist hour.. it is sad becasue last year i guess he was a player... idk i need sleep its almost midnight nite all 

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bambi<33